Oh man. Well. I’ve never ever had any serious health issues. I’ve been so fortunate. So it makes me very nervous that I’m getting so sick. I don’t know what’s wrong yet. I still haven’t seen my doctor, because every time I try to something stupid happens that prevents me from going. To be honest, I don’t even care anymore. I don’t even want to know what’s wrong. I’ve been so fucking emotional and sad lately. I know I have a million reasons to be happy. And I’m trying so hard to stay positive. But I feel so lost and almost like I’ve given up on life. I guess its gotten to the point where I don’t even want to see my doctor because I don’t care if I have anything life threatening. Really, what do I have to live for..?